It’s not often that I have to stop because I am just totally fascinated.

But from time to time, nature reminds me that one should make good use of the day.

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How does it feel to be the person to whom you turn to in an emergency? How wonderful is that feeling of being so important to someone? It’s the biggest vote of confidence you can get. And sometimes it’s not necessary to offer a solution for the other one’s problem, just a few words are […]

Dear Mr. Santa, I run to the mailbox every single day and I look through the chimney every day if I did receive an answer to my letter. Unfortunately I will be disappointed again and again. As you surely know, I am not a very patient person. That’s why I just wanted to inform you, […]

We should be sleeping, but we are missing.  And every open question remains as it is. It’s like we dive,  everything around us is gone. We both got lost and found us. We are made for each other, we are like the day and the night. Like the day and the night. Even in the darkest corners, we do not care where we […]

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The devil has many faces and each person has their own idea of him or her. To simplify the spelling, my devil is male, although I’m sure it could be just as good a woman. Sometimes he is hidden even in small children or other characters. The devil can take any shape for those who […]

Silhouette

über Täglicher Themenvorschlag: Silhouette / via Today’s one-word prompt made me think about a word called “Silhouette“. A silhouette is the image of a person, animal, object or scene represented as a solid shape of a single color, usually black, with its edges matching the outline of the subject. The interior of a silhouette is featureless, […]

cells from my body

Today I read an article, in which was described, that every cell in our entire body is destroyed and replaced every seven years. How comforting it is to know, that one day I will have a body, nobody but him will have ever touched.

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Today! Today is the time! Today is the time for change! Today is the time for change in my mind! Today is the time for a change in my mind with more self-confidence! Today! Every day we do have the chance to make a good day or a bad day out of the day. Of course, […]

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So satisfied, yet so dissatisfied. So rich, yet so poor. Few good friends and yet so alone! Many is not always much. Sometimes very little is everything. I’m sitting in the car, and the raindrops patter on the window. It’s cold and grubby outside and for that, no one wants to go outside. Only ones […]

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My life is likened to a bargain store. And I may have just what you’re looking for. If you don’t mind the fact that all the merchandise is used, with a little mending, it could be as good as new. Why you take for instance this old broken heart, if you will just replace the […]

Some say the world will end in fire, Some say in ice. From what I’ve tasted of desire I hold with those who favor fire. But if it had to perish twice, I think I know enough of hate To say that for destruction ice Is also great And would suffice.

When life is silent about everything and you still owe an answer. When Life tells you nothing but ‘No!’, then be sure it passes off. If the meaning of everything does not show, it camouflages itself fouled up beyond all recognition. If something helps with certainty, then time! It passes off! Don’t be so hard on yourself, it’s ok if you […]

Books can be sorted in different ways. For authors, for example, alphabetically by title, by year of publication – or not at all. What most book lovers are less worried about: the look of the shelf. My friend just throws them on a stack without caring if they are horizontal or vertical. On Instagram and […]

I’ve always wanted to be part of the community. It used to be the smokers, I wanted to belong to. They were cool, just a very special mentality. Smoking is shit! That was never the question. In the old days, everything which was shit and which was forbidden, was cool. Being with the cool ones was always […]

You want to go, I prefer to jump, when you talk, I want to sing, You hit roots, I have to fly, we hushed the silence around us. Where has the love gone? I feel young and you are old, so we fall over, we are missing the support. We have to move on, I’m for it, you are against it. […]

I have a view, you’ll never forget it again. So beautiful, words are not enough for that. I’m lucky because I do not have to hurry, I do not have to do anything to be meaningful. The woods are on the horizon, like waves over the land. They take me with them as if we were related. I run here […]

Do you know why I do love animals this much? I am driving home from work by tube and everyone is sitting there bored and annoyed. Nobody talks, everyone is watching with these empty eyes out of the window or into their shitty smartphone. Nobody smiles except of myself 😊 I can’t help myself. I […]

Do not stand at my grave and weep, I am not there, I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow, I am the diamond glints on snow, I am the sun on ripened grain, I am the gentle autumn rain. When you awaken in the morning’s hush, I am the swift uplifting […]

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Get out, get off! Let me finally sleep! Why am I not able to see you? Are you too cowardly to face me? Or are you unreal and have neither name nor face? You have molested me long enough, just go and plague someone else! Let me finally make my peace, that’s what I’ve earned […]

So fresh and young, motivated, fun-loving. Life is a playground and all swings are free. There’s nothing that can slow me down, there’s nobody standing in my way. Everything is exciting, everything is so new and undiscovered. This inner fire, which heats my mind. I do not know where the source comes from, but life […]

“My stomach’s full of butterflies!” lamented Dora Diller. Her mother sighed. “That’s no surprise, you ate a caterpillar!”

Is it a no, or is it a yes? Am I only one in a row, or is it paid with success? What was their impression, is their sympathy mine? Was it good expression or do they decline? I showed up motivation, my power and skills, I proved my dedication, not only to pay up […]

Is it still a good deed, if you just do it because you want to talk about it? The board of management of our company have once again doused with oil. There is no get-together at Christmas this year as every year, no, this year there is a get-together to talk about our good deed. They baked […]

As I have missed you, I had long forgotten how great you are. I look at you and know that you are worth every sin. At this moment I do not care what it makes me. I do not think about the consequences. It will definitely have some! I do not care. My lips slowly […]

I can not describe it. It’s such a thing that you do not see with your eyes. That’s just another feeling. It’s just there, everything where it belongs. The shadow forms a perfect line, from the neck to the shoulder, and makes the muscles stand out even more clearly. It is this hollow on the […]

I take seriously what I think thinking. The time I need is never wasted. Being a friend for yourself and treating yourself attentively and regardfully: An absurd thought? No, not at all. The more you love your own decisions, the less you need others to love them. You should really like yourself, because it does not […]

Only once would I like to do what I like to do. What would it be like to wake up in the morning, having joy to go to work today? What would it feel like, not to waste important time and a lot of nerves? We talk about green IT, conserve resources and climate change. […]

I think that I shall never see A graph more lovely than a tree. A tree whose crucial property Is loop-free connectivity. A tree that must be sure to span So packets can reach every LAN. First, the root must be selected. By ID, it is elected. Least-cost paths from root are traced. In the […]

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies. I’m not cute or built to suit a fashion model’s size But when I start to tell them, They think I’m telling lies. I say, It’s in the reach of my arms The span of my hips, The stride of my step, The curl of my lips. I’m […]

Maybe your next vacation is already ticked through, while you do not know exactly what you want to do next year. Not to mention the next ten years. Of course, this difference in attention is due to the shortness of the holiday and the length of life. But that is only seemingly endless, and you should […]

I always thought sex would be the only thing you really need a man to. But it’s never too late to change your opinion. You simply always know where to tackle. Thanks for making me damp again honey!

Sind so kleine Hände winzge Finger dran. Darf man nie drauf schlagen die zerbrechen dann. Sind so kleine Füße mit so kleinen Zehn. Darf man nie drauf treten könn sie sonst nicht gehn. Sind so kleine Ohren scharf, und ihr erlaubt. Darf man nie zerbrüllen werden davon taub. Sind so kleine Münder sprechen alles aus. […]

How does it feel? I try to take it consciously and to feel every single stimulation of my nerves for myself. In my mind, I picture what it’s like… but it’s a thousand times better. It feels like it has to be, just like it has to feel, exactly like that. It’s warm and it’s nice […]

My phone always shows me a list of interesting articles in the morning, which might be interesting for me. In the train to work I read these mostly. This morning I wished I had not done it, but maybe it’s another kick in the butt I need so badly. There was an article on how a human tormented […]

Did not one teach you that I love you, even if you are not always the best? I do not love you for a sportive performance and I do not love you for the award. I do not love you for a good job or money! I love your face when you enjoy it, and […]

No other one is responsible for your sense of happiness, and you aren’t able to hold another one accountable for your misfortune. Be aware that they can find happiness only for themselves. You can find happiness only for yourself! Take your life into your own hands and program your thoughts, your mind, to happiness. Self-realization is not a dirty […]

Luckily I have nothing to do with cannibals, but that’s not the point. Knife and fork are here symbolically for attendance and the lowest level of mental activity, cannibalism the working morale. The question is of course a rhetorical one, and the answer is NO! If someone superficially respects the rules, that does not make a bad acting […]

Clytie and Leucothea, were water nymphs. Early every morning they used to come up from the depths of their river, with other nymphs from neighboring streams and fountains, and dance among the water-plants on its shores. But with the first rays of the rising sun, all the dancers plunged back into the water and disappeared; for that was the law among water-nymphs.

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She wore that trademark skirt that showed off her legs, so ridiculously short but somehow was the best, at showing off her figure and making peoples heads turn, his blood was boiling hot enough to burn, he whispered in her ear how hot she looked, she smiled at him and said ‚I like this look […]

This is not my world I live in. I feel like I do not belong here. The days are blurred in front of my eyes and I only work.  Every day the same cloudy soup. I get up in the morning and have no desire for the day. All the ass-creepers, bootlickers and Yes-Sayers are […]

I already had all the colors. A bit like the seasons. The world has a different color every quarter of a year. And somehow it seems to me that my mood is the same. Sometimes it is gray and mushy, then it is a white piece of paper. Then the sun comes out again and at the latest with the heat everything is forgotten again. And changes the hair. Like life. Continue reading

Today, I have accompanied someone to the doctor. For me, she is one of my closest beloved. She is always there for me and I see her every single day, except of a few ones a year. I saw a big needle. I saw it and I observed the one who was going to get […]

Cats are strange companions, we never quite know where we stand with them. They are purring creatures and condescending overlords. They do switch their mood within seconds: In a moment they let themselves be caressed with pleasure and show us their vulnerable side, in the other moment, they turn around and bite mercilessly. Without any warning. […]

If I buy myself some clothes or other material things, my pleasure is not for very long time. You buy it, you wear it, you take it for granted. But if you invest your money in travelling, you live on this for longtime. Memories arise and you gain pictures in your head from moments nobody could give you […]

I wake up in the morning and wonder what time it is. Is it already time to stand up? Who defines the time to stand up? It’s me. I got no liabilities today, so it doesn’t matter at all. My eyes are wandering around and stop at the bed next to me. It is empty. […]

Erich Fried

Es ist Unsinn, sagt die Vernunft.
Es ist, was es ist, sagt die Liebe.
Es ist Unglück, sagt die Berechnung.
Es ist nichts als Schmerz, sagt die Angst.
Es ist aussichtslos, sagt die Einsicht.
Es ist, was es ist, sagt die Liebe.
Es ist lächerlich, sagt der Stolz.
Es ist leichtsinnig, sagt die Vorsicht.
Es ist unmöglich, sagt die Erfahrung.

Es ist, was es ist  –  sagt die Liebe.

 

 

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Bin ich noch ich? Ich ist Ich weil Ich ist wie Ich eben ist. Aber ist Ich noch Ich, wenn Ich wie Du sein versucht? Warum meint Ich dass Ich wie Du sein muss und mag Du Ich noch, wenn Ich nicht mehr Ich ist, oder mag Du sich selbst lieber als Ich? Wie weit geht Ich um ihr […]

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start You put your arms around me And I believe that it’s easier for you to let me go You put your arms around me and I’m home How […]

Lying in bed and not being able to sleep really is a bad thing. I never used to know this. I can’t sleep because my thoughts won’t let me. Isn’t there a handle to switch off the own head? Would be a nice invention to get rich with. But please don’t rob my idea. I […]

I used to love people. I used to be tolerant to all their problems and to all their belongings. I was loved by everyone. I talked to everyone. Now I am sick of them. I am so fucking sick of them that it sometimes hurts. I don’t want to talk to anybody anymore. What did […]

I am sitting at the airport and I am watching two of the employees helping a handicapped man. He is not able to change his wheelchair to another seat himself. I think nearly everybody thinks the same watching this: “I am glad that I am able to walk and I am glad not to need […]

The formula is always easy. You only have to find one that fits to your bleongings and then you start buying the ingredients. Sometimes you have to go to several stores before you get everything you want. Not every store has Weinstein baking powder, and many people do not even know what the hell it […]

My Mom the do-gooder! I wanted to check my emails today. I took my laptop and saw that my mom was still logged in with her account. I often do a lot of stuff for her, cause she isn’t very fit with all the computer stuff.She could be, because she’s very intelligent, but she doesn’t want […]

Why do women without a man do usually have a cat?  Is it because they are really similar? Both playful, sometimes lazy and never to understand?  They both stay where they feel comfortable without any need to do much for it.  But there’s one difference left: Cats are always honest meanwhile you are able to […]

It’s eating me up every single night. It’s eating me up. I am so alone.  My favourite favourite drug would be to wake up with him every single day… and I am sure that I would honour this every single day… without taking it for granted.  It’s eating me up. Is it possible that two […]

I made a good choice with you! he said. Actually it was me chosing you! I replied. And then my thoughts began to take its course. Was it really me choosing him? I thought so because I was the first to start the conversation. But if I have to think twice, I do not know […]

Till today I didn’t know that the quote Brakes are for losers! comes out of a video game. I did not know this quote until I met someone special. I watched him doing the Ironman. I told him to be careful. I told him so because I was afraid of him. He’s the kind of […]

This morning I did my sports workout in a fitness center in the hotel. I had a beautiful view through the big window down to the big city below me and so I was looking forward to walk on the treadmill. I started running… and I started thinking like I normally do jogging in the […]

The one I love Told me That he needs me. Therefore I take care of myself See my way and Fear of every raindrop That he could slay me. © Berthold Brecht Der, den ich liebe … Der, den ich liebe Hat mir gesagt Daß er mich braucht. Darum Gebe ich auf mich acht Sehe […]

I would like to sit at the beach and see the world through the eyes of a man. What do they see when they look around? I can tell it to you from my point of view. I mostly do not watch out for beautiful men, although I am a really heterosexual woman. My eyes […]

I am lying in the little coye of the night train from Bangkok to Surat Thani. This is my third night without sleep. I am lying awake and my eyes don’t want to do me the favor to close themselves. Since today I did not know why I couldn’t sleep at all, but perhaps I […]

This weekend I visited a castle and there was a falconer. I was deeply impressed by the birds which I saw there. There have been huge eagles and also little tiny owls. I fell in love with George, the smallest one of all. I looked at his little wings and these mini eyes. He was so […]

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If someone would ask me what I wanted to have for birthday present, my answer would be simple. I don’t need expensive presents, I don’t need material things. I don’t want to have flowers or a special cake. I would reply: I just want my beloved to spend TIME with me. Seems simple but the more […]

How are you? This is one of the most frequently asked questions. We hear it almost every day. Yesterday morning, I was on my way to work and when I got into the elevator, I met a collegue of mine. She smiled at me and asked: How are you? What I thought: I’m not fine, […]

When you invest in love, it is like investing in equities or derivatives: you never have a guarantee on return. Not even on repayment. There’s no one who could underwrite you to get your money back. So why are you afraid of being deceived? The worst thing that could happen to you is to be […]

Do you know the days you wake up in the morning and you know that this day is going to be awesome?! The moments you don’t know if you’re still dreaming? I had such a moment today. I woke up and there he was, this wonderful man with sleep in his lovely eyes. He smiled […]

She had blue skin And so did he. he kept it hid and so did she. They searched for blue their whole life through, then passed right by – and never knew.

I am a dreamer. I always dream of the things I want to do in life. Believe me, there are enough of it. But I do not have the courage to make them real. It’s a shame but I can’t get out of my skin. In the daytime my body has several functions: like getting out […]

We try to separate our feelings like waste. We try to split off the bad and concentrate on the good. Are you successful with that? Does it make your life better? Is it even possible to treat feelings like trash? I don’t think so! I think we are all a sum of feelings which should […]

Some of my best friends know me very well. For them it’s predictable how I am going to act in some situations. For my mother even my mood is predictable by just looking into my face. These are the people I love and spend time with. They know me for many years or even all […]

Do I want that? Do I want that? Do I want that?

People only hear what they want to hear, no matter what you say. There are always people who adhere to their opinion, even if they can’t constitute it. And sometimes we even know that this fact is a lie, but we want to believe so bad… …that we do! It is fascinating how our mind is […]

Love ist the sweetest thing I know. It makes me smile all day and it makes me feel invulnerable. For me, this is the greatest gift I can imagine: being loved for who I am. With all my failures and all my bad habits. We are all affected by things that happened in our past. The […]

My beloved friend Conny used to say: They are all grey and wrinkled when they get old. I totally agree with her. The optical appearance attracts us for the first view, for the first hours or for the first weeks. But in the end, this is not the thing we grow old with. For me, […]

Who am I? I am here in this moment thinking about myself. I am a human being and I am thinking out of a body that belongs to me. Isn’t it strange that these two things seem to be separated parts of me while asking me this question?

It is not our nature to sit on the couch and watch TV. We are meant to do something. Don’t you have so many ideas what to do in your life, take an adventure or travel the world? Maybe both? Not everyone is a traveller, not everyone likes action. But you should always remember that your heart […]

One day, I will no longer exist. Don’t know how many years or months or days are left to live, but I often ask myself: the day I will not exist anymore, will the world ever change a bit? Is there anything that will be different than it is now? What did I do in […]

I often go to sleep at night being reflexive. I’m often concerned about many things. My thoughts begin to spin in circles and I begin to be worried about my day. I am afraid of what will be or if my plans will work. But my biggest fear is always to please everybody. For me it […]

Being skeptical will prevent you from unfolding your creativity. If you hesitate too long, you will always find something you do not like. Do not do that! Do not doubt and give your imagination space. Talent can not be learned or trained. Not everyone is creative. But I’m sure the ones who are: They just […]

There comes a time in life, you have the sad feeling that there’s nobody left who cares. Otherwise you have broke or you lose your job or someone died. Not the moments we want to witness. Not the moments that make us happy. Think about it. Think about it twice. These are the moments you […]