God decided in Heaven one day – that you should be born in a wonderful way. He chose your parents – their elements right – to create a special ‘You’. What a beautiful sight. There’s no one on earth exactly like you – a miracle of life in all that you do. Sometimes we lose […]

I balance, I stumble, I fall! I fight, I run, I crawl! I laugh, I love, I kiss! I long, I need, I miss! I’m noisy, I’m loud, I’m crazy! I’m alive, I’m on, I’m lazy! I’m powerful, I’m strong, I’m proud! I’m small, I’m helpless, I shout: Tell me why, and tell me when! […]

Where can I pick you up, where can I take you with me? And if it goes down a bit, I tell a little bit about life. After a fucking day, to give you the certainty that it is not true, when others say it is all in vain. Do not go on it, do not give […]

She sat straight in bed In silence and fear For the demons of darkness Had driven her here They cut her heart Right out of her chest Making her believe That the demons knew best They were always there Sometimes just out of sight Waiting in the background Till the time was right These demons […]

I am so full of knowledge, I am so full of thoughts. My head is full of dreams, wishes and expectations. I am hungry for life and I am so curious what will be. Full of memories and junk food. Full of hopes, longings and fights. So overcrowded, overfilled, overstocked. Jam-full. Stuff nobody needs everywhere. […]

A free bird leaps on the back of the wind and floats downstream till the current ends and dips his wing in the orange sun rays and dares to claim the sky. But a bird that stalks down his narrow cage can seldom see through his bars of rage his wings are clipped and his […]

It’s been so long that I wrote some words here and it happened so endless much. I will never be able to catch up the feelings I lived through here.

I’m so terribly unhappy and I absolutely do not know how to put it back straight. I have never been this infinitely sad and I feel so damn alone in this world.

It’s just hard to believe that, despite the efforts of my friends, you feel as if you are alone in front of a huge pile of broken glass which has once been my life. My little Lucy mouse is the only constant that is still with me, but I keep her locked in the apartment, so she has no other choice!

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Mama was not feeling well for the whole day, but no one could have guessed that she would collapse. Fortunately, M. was at odds with A., and was at home. Something’s wrong with her digestion and circulation.



Mom did only feel sick for yesterday. Today she hung up the laundry again and made a yeast cake. We all take care that she does not strain herself. Because we all want her to be fine.

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The devil has many faces and each person has their own idea of him or her. To simplify the spelling, my devil is male, although I’m sure it could be just as good a woman. Sometimes he is hidden even in small children or other characters. The devil can take any shape for those who […]

So satisfied, yet so dissatisfied. So rich, yet so poor. Few good friends and yet so alone! Many is not always much. Sometimes very little is everything. I’m sitting in the car, and the raindrops patter on the window. It’s cold and grubby outside and for that, no one wants to go outside. Only ones […]

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This morning I did my sports workout in a fitness center in the hotel. I had a beautiful view through the big window down to the big city below me and so I was looking forward to walk on the treadmill. I started running… and I started thinking like I normally do jogging in the […]

How are you? This is one of the most frequently asked questions. We hear it almost every day. Yesterday morning, I was on my way to work and when I got into the elevator, I met a collegue of mine. She smiled at me and asked: How are you? What I thought: I’m not fine, […]

I often go to sleep at night being reflexive. I’m often concerned about many things. My thoughts begin to spin in circles and I begin to be worried about my day. I am afraid of what will be or if my plans will work. But my biggest fear is always to please everybody. For me it […]